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January 21, 2005
Where The Hell Has January Gone?
I mean, it's nearly over! It's a good thing I didn't say that I'd do regular blog entries as a resolution...!
Still, I can honestly say that so far 2005 has had it's ups and it's downs. The ups include getting to try out my Konusmotor 500 telescope (albeit through the window) and finding that it works well, and that a bright star turns out to be two bright stars! Sadly I haven't been able to get down to using it for a few reasons (the weather and something I'll tell you about in a minute or two) but I have now got (thank to Ebay) a 2x Barlow (magnifier) and a 32mm wide angle lense that are both decent quality, so I'm happy!
Other good bits have included being able to catch up on 3 months or so of Stargates and Battlestar Galactica - definitely a good thing as it frees up so many video tapes - and finally got to see Firefly. The bad news is how I got to watch all this!
I don't want to bore you all with stories about work, so I won't, but I need to put it in some perspective. Work sucks. And currently, though I haven't actually been in work for long this year (literally!), it sucks even harder. Y'see I got through the first week back - no problems besides annoying people who were not in when they said they would be, were moaning that things I had been to see them about on Cristmas Eve hadn't been fitted yet - the usual crap - but the second week was not so good. Monday was fine, apart from a bit of a headache. Tuesday I got up feeling a bit off, but went to work - luckily it was a day of deliveries. Unluckily I didn't get many done as I ended up driving with my eyes almost shut due to the headache, dizziness and general feeling terrible-ness. I came home a bit early and had a bad night. The headache got worse, the dizziness got worse, but thankfully I wan't sick. Basically the bug that hit me over Christmas hit again, only worse. Fine - I had three days off sick. And to those who moan about this, please note that I was so ill I couldn't sit and do anything at the computer - a slight pain in the arse as I hoped I would be able to do some art on the comics! Every time I moved I felt ill, out of breath and the headache got worse - I was also a bit worried as my heart had started it's thing again.
By the weekend I was able to think a bit better as the headache eased off, though it didn't go away. I got the pencils done for Dark Tidings and felt better in myself. Sunday saw me going to Nick's and having a blast - James even deigned to turn up online to let us know he was staying at home to do some DIY. No problems there. I got home did some stuff, and went to bed. I slept, though I kept waking up as the headache came back and at one point I was sat up in bed just thinking about how the way my heart was pounding and my chest was shaking, my foot op looked even further away than ever, as if I went to the doctors, it goes on my records and so the guy who puts me to sleep will say no again. This probably didn't help, and was another brick in the wall that I was going to run headfirst into in the morning...
Morning came, I felt crappy, but went in to work anyway. The first person I met was David, my counterpart in the Ribble Valley, who said it was good to see me, but didn't think I looked right. Oh, if only I had followed his advice and 'gone home if I didn't feel well'... All morning I felt terrible - I kept having to go to the loo for one reason or another, my head quickly got worse, I was sweating and freezing at the same time, the other people in the office kept looking at me as though I had gone green. About 11.00 I went to the loo, and stayed there for a while due to the world spinning round, the shakes and an uncontrollable bout of crying. Al morning I had been unable to think striaght (again) and the simple tasks I had set myself just were not so simple. I finally went back in when the world had calmed down a bit and took a call from admin after I had stumbled to my chair. Even she felt I sounded ill - I promised to go out to see the woman it was about that afternoon. By this time someone had put a penny in the slot and the world was at it again. Once I put the phone down, I sat there, sweating, hoping I wouldn't fall off my chair. Barbara across the table came round and people were asking me if I was okay - I was crying and somehow got up and got a tissue - which didn't help. I said I was fine, but I clearly wasn't. Or at least I think I 'said' it - I may just have mumbled... Barbara convinced me to got to the sick room where I sat for half an hour while I tried to sort myself out. After a while I went back in, called my boss and left a message on his mobile to say that I was cancelling the leave I had planned at the end of next week and booking the rest of this week off as well. I then set off for home, though like a fool I went to see the woman in Padiham I said I would do. I know, it was silly (but considering I also had to fit a loop system for a lady last Thursday and did that while I was still very ill). Luckily it was simple, though I don't remember the drive home. That is scary.
At home, I got on my bed and did very little until Tuesday morning when mum dragged me to the Doctors! Basically, he thinks I obviously (went) back too early, and that all of this gave me an anxiety attack! Apparently my blood pressure is fine at the moment and my heart sounded rough but okay. I am back on the betablockers anyway, and I'm kinda glad, if a little pissed off. I also had to rest and try to avoid stress. That should be easy then! Most of this week has been spent off the PC again as I felt far worse than last time (currently it is Friday and the headache isn't going anywhere, I feel ill and dizzy when I move and yes, the headache gets much worse when I do), and only really got back yesterday when I did the Dark Tidings art.
So, basically, I still feel crappy (thinking is not a strong point at the moment, though that may be the daytime television I've been exposed to) and I can't be sure I will be at work next week! Looks like the rest of my holidays will be spent dealing with this! That should make Andrew happy...! I do know I won't be at Nick's this weekend - hopefully I'll be at work next week, but I have to avoid stress... oh joy!
The things I'll do to avoid getting out of going for a night out...
Still, good things include finally getting down to the art in the past day or so - I've uploaded the opening stuff for Dark Tidings ready for the end of the month and can hopefully get lots of I.T. done. Should be fun and non-stressful (especially if I am in work) next week...
Ah well - I'm quitting before my head explodes again (currently shaking, headache getting bad and cold sweats, should you want to know) - maybe another entry next week... or next month! See you whenever...!
Posted by Badgers at 10:04 PM | Comments (2)